I am feeling rather lost, I’m 22 and I have spent the majority of
my life up to now, in some sort of education, whether that be full time courses,
work based learning or night courses… it feels a little strange to be starting
The good thing is, is that I have managed, to somehow land myself
a new full time job, just three weeks after completing my degree, the day we
finished, I started applying because I knew I needed to just ‘get a move on’ and
start fresh. It is important to me to develop my professional career status and
also to be a hardworking mother and to provide a comfortable life for my family
and a future for my Quinn.
I start my new job in just a couple of weeks and today I handed
my notice in at the Museum Café; feels a little
The job that I’m starting, I’m very excited for, it’s in the
sales and customer service industry still, but it’s much better pay, and
hopefully much better prospects for my own future. A lot are surprised when I
say this, and most find the profession somewhat mind numbing and boring, but I
find it intense and fresh every day, no day is the same. I actually love the
customer service industry and I’ve only realised it recently after fighting at
my interviews for this position. Strange how much it meant to me, I always
thought I’d want to go into the education sector and teach, of course I’m
passionate about helping students and motivating people and continuing with my
education and skills too… but I’m just not sure about that
I’m still not really sure what I want to be “when I grow up.”And
I’m not sure whether I’ll ever figure that out, I know my parents still ask
themselves that question quite regularly, and possibly my grandparents too!!!
I’m hoping there is room for promotion in my new job, and I’m
also hoping that I’ll be everything they expect and
I’ve been researching into more courses that I can do from home
or at night school, I have massive ambitions, but I’m not sure whether I want to
talk about them right now, it may just be another “phase” for me (as a lot of
people say) apparently I’m quite impulsive and don’t think things through
enough, but don’t think that there’s anything wrong with a little passion and
excitement and I hope with a little more research into these courses, I may just
have a little more movement in my career options when their
My Nan gave me a book voucher as a small, congratulatory gift for
completing my degree, which really meant a lot. She said to use it for something
that will encourage me to continue, and she did provide me with the motivation
to not just forget about the past three years and to not get hung up on things
that just haven’t worked out.
The books I purchased where “If
you have to cry GO OUTSIDE and other things your mother never told you” by
Kelly Cutrone. At
first I first struggled to take the book seriously as its sort of a self-help
book, a book to give the readers motivation to pursue their dreams, blah, blah,
blah; that being said, I only started reading it on the train to work this
morning and I’m half way through, so it’s obviously having some sort of impact,
either that or I’m being brain-washed.
The Second book I purchased is possibly even more
cringe-worthy;“The Start-up of You –
Adapt to the Future, Invest in Yourself and Transform Your Career” by Reid Hoffman and Ben Canocha, I think
it’s important to look at two aspects of a subject (two books, one written by a
female, the other by a male) because it helps you to compare certain opinions
and to erase some of the bullshit of stereotypes and society preconceptions. I
didn’t want to be overtly influenced by a woman obviously influenced by feminism
and power. There is nothing wrong with female liberation, but I definitely think
men (maybe another stereotype by myself) can be a little more laid back than
women, and don’t feel the need to prove themselves so
Am I just being completely
contradictive?? Never mind….
Anyway, I’ll keep you posted on how these books
are impacting my outlook on the world and whether they are inspiring me to open
my eyes to the world a little more.
I don’t want to get comfortable in the same routine every day. I want to
go on an adventure!
I also have some ideas for new blog posts and articles that I
would love to write, and new arty projects, you’ll just have to wait and
Very optimistic today!